Is it bad that I’d rather stay late on campus than go home to my apartment? Really though…if I keep feeling this way about coming back to my apartment, then idk what to do. I mean I have an idea of what I should do…but should I really go through with it? I don’t have that courage and I should only do it if it is really the best thing to do. I really wish I had a car though. I want it more now than ever. Just so I can drive and be anywhere but here. I don’t know what has happened that has made me not want to be here. But every time I step into my apartment, I just want to escape. Idk, I can’t do this anymore. It’s finals week but it’s so hard for me to concentrate because there are many things that are bothering me. And it doesn’t help that I can’t stand being in my apartment. Idk what to do. It’s driving me crazy. I don’t want to go home to home home and I don’t want to be here. I don’t even know where I really want to be.